Like watching the sun set on a great day, we've probably all wanted to stop the clock and just be in the moment.
That's how the last few months have been for us because as I wrote in my Post "Preparing to Say Goodbye" (4/29/11), the time has been coming to say goodbye to Sunny Bear (Bear), our sweet and cherished, third-time-was-the-charm, Rescue Belgian Draft Horse.
It could be tomorrow, maybe next week, maybe the week after. We had no idea that it would be 5 months later.
My husband and I have turned to each other and said the time was coming. But the next day Bear would be doing better. We'd say, "Soon, but not today." Because "the day" was imminent, I didn't Post a picture of Bear on the front page of my Blog. It was just too sad for me to put up a picture of a beloved horse whose life was on such a short string.
It is said, "You will know when it's time to say goodbye".
In the past few weeks Bear has become a bag of bones, regardless of how much or what we feed him, his hips and ribs are visible. I watch him walk, he is feeble. He stands out in the middle of the pasture unaware of his surroundings.
When I came out to feed this morning Bear was down. I could see by the pile of dirt where his back legs rested that he'd been struggling to get up without any luck. He periodically raised his head. When I approached him he didn't seem upset about the situation. He took carrots from me - I left a path of them hoping they'd encourage him to find the strength to get up and eat them.
And even though my carrot plan eventually worked, I went inside and made the necessary calls followed by a call to my husband to tell him what I'd done. It's true, you will know when it is time to say goodbye...
The trials and tribulations of a 50+ women, living her life-time dream of having horses and living in the country.
Her attempts at various disciplines of riding, including sorting, trail, and performance.